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I love my job most of the time, but I don’t know if I could see myself doing it for the rest of my life. Being a member of the general IT staff isn’t quite what I had planned for my life, but it’s an easy option. I really want to be paid to play games and program all day, but life hasn’t quite worked out that way.

It all seems to revolve around uni. Most of my family believe to succeed in life I need to goto uni. I can’t decide if they’re right; I’ve never been through it, and whilst most of them haven’t either, I can see their point. Just looking in the jobs section of most newspaper’s tells me this. But, most people I know who have been to uni are being turned down jobs for lack of experience; also which is heavily requested in the jobs section. Now, do I stay in this job and work up from the bottom, gathering as many other qualifications as possible - including an Open University course? Or do I go on a proper course, come out with a massive debt, and be an ex-student bum? Tough decision.

Either way, I’m probably not going to a “proper” uni this year. But what about next year? Or the year after that? When is it too late to apply? It’s funny how all these feelings come back up after submitting a unnameable uni’s online questionnaire about where I am, and how I feel now about uni.

To be honest, I’m not a big group person. It takes me a long, long time to be comfortable with people - even now most people I consider to be my closest friend’s don’t know about the “real me”. Perhaps not even Amy. For this reason, I don’t think I’d fit in at uni; even with the other spod’s. But then again, you don’t know until you try.

So, I stay at this job for a little longer - then I do stay or do I risk everything and go? Unlike most of my peers I’ve got a stable job, a reasonably good working environment, a good boss; all in a line of work which interests me. But fuck all to back myself up if it all goes wrong. Perhaps its time to start work on that open university course, and con the boss into some LPI certification, as well as the Microsoft (philosophically its against my Free and Open attitude, but it pays the bills) stuff.